Thursday, August 29, 2013

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Things Keeping Me Sane

-old texts from hubby that I can reread to make me feel better
-girly movies
-my dog
-new camera and upcoming photography class

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Exciting Future

It's been just over a week since hubby left for training. The first week was rough but I'm feeling more optimistic day by day. It also helps that I have gotten to hear from him every night for the past four days. However, he leaves reception tomorrow and gets assigned to his unit then I can't expect much more than letters. 
We are both happy for things to finally be getting under way. The more time that passes the easier it will be I think. It's nice to be able to say that one week has passed. I'm sure before I know it I will be saying only one week until I get to see him. 
I'm trying to focus on the future. A family friend has a house that has been up for sale for awhile nearby where hubby will be for AIT and we are talking about the possibilities of me staying there so I can be closer to him for that 5-6 month span of time.  I know I might not actually get to see him a lot even if I do move there but I think the adventure of living somewhere new would be exciting. We will see. A lot of things to figure out between now and then if it does happen. 

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Staying Busy

Time seems to be going by really slow. Not as slow as yesterday though. Everything seems a little easier than yesterday. I'm hoping that trend continues throughout the next ten weeks. I've just been trying to stay busy. That's what everyone says to do. It's still sometimes difficult even when I'm busy just because so much stuff reminds me of him but I've been getting a lot done. I have been working out which has helped a little. I keep telling myself that if he can do all of this for me then I can do some stuff for him. I can work out and get stronger physically and be more emotionally and mentally strong for him. I also feel like he will be so happy and proud to find out that I painted the rest of the porch on the house we are selling. I plan on fixing up some more stuff there soon too. Really I guess I am just taking things hour by hour, day by day. I know that if anything I will miss him more each day but I told him I would stay strong for him so I will.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013


Going to bed alone is hard. Waking up is even harder. Things are a lot easier during the day if I stay busy. It hasn't even been a whole day since he left and I'm really struggling to figure out how to make it through this. I did join a gym and ran today though. I figure if he can do what he's going to be doing the next 11 weeks then I can commit to going to the gym most days. I would love to be able to run with him when he's done with all of this but I know that could be a stretch.

Saturday, August 10, 2013


It's funny sometimes what dreams can tell us. Yes, I have an occasional dream where people turn into spiders but sometimes my dreams are way more realistic. Last night I had a dream about my hubby leaving which I was sort of expecting to have by now. It was a pretty simple dream that took place at the airport. Yet somehow it made everything make sense. Don't get me wrong I'm not sitting here in denial that he is leaving for trainign for 30 weeks, with intentions of somehow keeping him here, but my dream made me feel okay about him leaving. He has to leave. Not only because if he doesn't show up the army will find him, but because it's the right thing to do at this point in our lives. In my dream, after making a decision to send someone else in his place, I looked at him asking what we were going to do now and he said "nothing".  This seems really simple when I write it down but it really put everything into perspective. There is no going back, even if we wanted to, even if we tried to. Our future is scary and it's also exciting. It is a big change for both of us and we made the choice together and the time is finally here.

Friday, August 9, 2013

Too Soon

Hubby leaves for army training on Monday. We have been super busy between finishing up moving and army stuff and visiting with friends and family. I have been handling his pending departure very well so far. I think being so busy has helped. Night time is the worst though. But on a more positive note, we are going to see Almost Queen, a cover band, tonight which should be fun then possibly going to the fair tomorrow. Sunday he has to go to a hotel so he can get up super early and go to processing, but we will get to have dinner and what not since he doesn't need to stay there until 10pm. Then Monday I can go see him off. It really is surreal that he is leaving so soon. Time has flown by.

Monday, August 5, 2013

Zoo time

So this is the last week left until hubby leaves for the army. We have tried to plan a ton of fun stuff to do that we haven't done yet this summer. Today we went to the zoo.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

A walk in the park

Took the dog for a walk in the metroparks the other day while hubby was doing army training. Only stayed for a half hour because the bugs almost carried us away but the scenery was beautiful.